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| this whole weekend was such a busy one for me...i had so much to do in so little time...i tried making time for everyone and everything i had to do...i did my best and finished everything that needed to be done...but i wasn't able to see much of anyone, and i feel bad about that...hopefully next weekend will be better after this week of school...i hope i can have fun this coming up weekend...hopefully there will be something fun to do...or something can be planned, i dunno, but we'll see...somethin' has been on my mind once again...just have to make the best of it, and hope everything will be arite, it usually is...hopefully...gnite then... | | |
| man, its like 5:30 in the morning, and i've been up for the past few days straight...insomnia i guess...well, i'm just sittin' here, thinkin' as usual, don't know really about what tho...just thinkin', finding myself i guess, takin' a journey within' myself...it seems i need to figure out a couple things of myself b4 i can even start thinking about what i want...this journey of mine had to take a stop for a while to take care of some other things...but i seem to have taken care of it already, i believe its finish and over with...a good thing for me...i try so hard to be the "nice-guy" but i couldn't be it for long...so now, i need time for myself, time to see what i want in life, who i am and ish...my friends tell me to open up, but its kinda hard for me to...i always keep things in, and not talk about it...i like to keep these things to me, cuz i don't want anyone else to have the burden of the dilema(spell check) i have i guess u can say...one of my very good friends asked me if i feel i shy, bashful...i said that i am...then my friend says if i want to, i should change that...and i said i've tried...but then my friend says i should change for me, not for anything else...that i should become who i feel i should be...and that i need to find myself b4 anything else...and so, i'm on my "journey"...pretty much its time for me away from everything, family and friends...i know this all seems depressing, but writing about it seems to help me "open-up"...well, its 5:40 now...and i'm still up...i guess i'll stay up as usual, and go back to my thinking state..well, i'm off for now... | | |
| lately everything seems to be goin' downhill for me...there are some ppl out there who over-exaggerate things a lot...and i'm not talking about the ones who are closest to me...its about one person in particular...i try to be a nice person and be sensitive to your feelings...i try to the right thing, but you go and make it bigger than what it is...you can't always be selfish about what you're going through and not think of what the other person might be having some other "ish" in their life...just remember, everything doesn't revolve around you, you can't be always thinking about yourself and no one else's feelings...i'm trying to be the "nice-guy" many people seem to be calling me, but you have to try to and not play these games...grow up and see the big picture...life isn't a play, so don't place any drama in it...enjoy it, and understand... | | |
| well, today was an interesting day...kept myself busy...a good thing...well, i picked my parents up from SeaTac today...they both went to Indianaopolis to attend my lil cuzin's baptism...she's so cute...but yea, i also was able to pretty much fix my car today, i'm almost done...just gotta put everything back together...it seems like nowadays i just gotta keep myself busy...it keeps my mind on more important things...i feel good also when i feel like i've helped someone through something...when they're confused, and in need of some friendly help...i'm there for those ppl...i guess right now, i feel better helping ppl...i believe i just need to do what i feel is right and go along with it...
update: pics of my niece...she's so cute...
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